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As the sky…
Opened up its eyes to cry, the rain came down for days
Spent in oblivion – I lay awake and recreate
Diversion haunts this house of cards, plagued this state
of mass confusion, digging ditches and graves
She teases the horizon, until it backs away
Backed into corners, joined, like shadow at two distant points
The quickest way around, we tremble at the river’s sound, the rushing water drowned
My love for higher ground

At the banks of the universe, we dip one foot at a time
Some fear they see the abyss – I close my eyes and dive
Trying to breathe in – this vacant breeze
The wind whistles familiar songs, I try to sing but nothing comes across…

I will…
See you on the other side, let my slit wrists come to rest
Up your shoulders down, smear my blood across your breasts
I’ll beg if you want me to…. no greater dignity
Then to worship you from afar – I’ll get down on my knees

And pray to this deity, who’s still ignoring me
her thundering laugh – as she reads my epitaph
Then lightning struck a branch, which fell ‘cross the divide
and I could see her arms, and they were open wide

I run from acceptance fast, I fear the precipice
Though I always told myself
I’d cross that bridge when I came to it
Instead I walked away, the rain came on for days
spent in oblivion, I lay awake and re-create

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from Shattered Shields, Pt. 1, released September 2, 2022

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illuminihilation Jersey City, New Jersey

Illuminihilation is the primary creative outlet of John Gnesin, guitarist, singer and songwriter from New Jersey, getting by with a lot of help from his friends.

My current project is to record and release collections of songs written in various styles in various times and places.

I hope you enjoy them! ... more

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