Regret – the only pure human emotion If I could do it again, I wouldn’t do it again But I can’t - so I’m left with only my Regret - and lust to die Insect – Fear me, hate me, hear me as I’m Buzzing in your ear This high-pitch screaming you try and keep me out, but I’m Always near - My dear Love me – embrace me despite my Infections (infestations) Like a brain-pain beating in the heart now Dying from the start - how I yearn For nothing but quiet Be silent lover Take me without a sound I promise not to struggle as death just crawls All over me now All over me now All over me now All over me now Like it did six months ago

Rising above you then falling before you Begging for mercy, I’ll never forgive you This time: elastic, sublime Ecstatic, neurotic, all mine To hold, to shape and to mold To crush in the hands that enfold I guess I didn’t want it bad enough And now I’ve had it up to here I’m giving up the reins So lead this horse to water if you must But I think she’s just as happy Sipping mud from the storm drain And would it make you feel better If I crossed my fingers and told you That it wasn’t all your fault Would it make much of difference to know That on the road to happiness You were my screeching halt Halt! Who goes there? Where the dragon is sleeping? In piles of treasure what creatures are creeping? In slime – we’re born without spines But the spikes and the thorns in our sides Inside – there’s nowhere to hide From the face of our faithless designs

Far away – far beyond – the limits of your conditioning Exists an Eden if you want it, a paradise found, but The moral structure they fabricate had some assembly required, making it seem plastic and fake Yet still you cling to your routine with idiotic pride While everyone keeps feeding you the same damn lines To plague you with inanity, to make you seethe, and Everything you read is such an obvious lie Meant to pacify – your weak mentality And thus you forsake your friends, your lovers and saviors for a pride to call your own You fool – isolation is a terminal disease – see – everyone dies alone When did you just stop pretending to care, about anyone at all I know you never really had my back, I know you’d just rather watch me fall And laugh, at all, the blood I’ve spilt, all the shit I take This so-called friendship you promised to me now seems – so plastic… so… Shake your head, turn your back, walk away from me – tell me I should have known Well may every step you take land in oceans of broken glass My friend – forever you walk alone

No lights – I beg – my darling (my darling) – I don’t want you To see me – this way Sit up – with me -til morning (til morning comes) Then let’s sleep – the day – away If I could take it all back I would – replace the bad with good Relive every moment, make things right It’s going to be a long night But alas – my love – betrayed me (you betrayed me)– left me hanging Swinging – in – the wind – and now you’re getting sick Of smiling – and pretending – so sick of these games The time we waste – saying nothing – til we got nothing left but to Get it all said out loud – why did you make me have to shout Why does everything I say go in one ear and come out the other end You could have been a better friend But for you – the things I’d do For your sake I put so much at stake Tried to have a little compassion - can’t you? - open your heart and leave the past in the past Which I can’t get past – why can’t I open my eyes and realize this would never last! And let it go. I finally washed my hands of this I finally washed my hands of this I finally washed my hands of this I finally washed my hands of this Won’t wipe the tears from my face ‘til they wash away the stain of your last kiss I finally washed my hands of this

Ding-dong, is anyone in the house? May I come in – or were you just on the way out? How’s life? Is it fair, I meant beautiful? If you’re content, don’t talk with your mouth full Don’t run with the scissors and don’t do drugs Don’t talk to strangers or leave the job half done Don’t let me in, because if you do… I’ll leave your house a big mess by the time I’m through Who’s there? Before I open this door Back up, I want to see a little bit more Before I decide if I should let you in I’m scared, don’t know where I’m s’posed to begin To run, cue the dramatic close-up Make-Up, make sure he sweats just enough I get anxious and I keep it with the rest of my stuff Painstakingly, I made this whole thing up That’s right, I lied when I looked in your eyes Fingers crossed, knuckles crack, then I threw the die Snake-eyes, with a side-order of inevitable I saw this coming with the eyes in the back of my skull It’s too bad, it might have been pretty good Wouldn’t done this to you, if only I could But not me: I aspire infinitely And you were just another blip on my radar screen So that’s right, go home and cry like a girl I know I promised ice cream and only gave you the world I’ll try harder, next time, if next time there be ‘til then, life goes on painstakeningly

I’ll think of a better way – do try to have patience with me I’ll come up with a good excuse, then you can believe whatever you choose I’ll pick a number between one and ten and, odds are you’ll guess it again No over/under – you’ve got my number – baby I ain’t no gamblin’ man, but I’ll take your action whenever I can And I’m willing to wager, that if looks could kill, I’d be dead where I stand Oh no, you don’t complete me, cause I’m not half a man And though I can’t say I love you yet, I can’t say I don’t love holding your hand Or running my fingers through your hair, getting hard under the charm of your Medusa stare I won’t lie and say I love you, can’t lie and say I don’t care You can believe whatever you choose – throw up your hands and ask what’s the use Girl - you can leave with whoever you want, but I can’t be happy with that which I don’t got So, smile and nod but come for this ride, we can talk in the car til the first morning light I’m here if you want that – my car’s parked out back

If we were sane, well we’d strive to move on How we’d dare to be brave - how we’d fight to stay strong we’d take all we have, and we’d give to the poor our spirits would rest, though our feet may be sore we’d spare the child and spoil the rod as we tear down the temples in the name of god first let’s head for the desert, bathe in the mirage of our sins and we’ll have congress with Satan, cause we can learn from him, we can learn from him oh, the things we can learn from him Now if I were god, or his ghost or his son, why I’d command forgiveness, unto my will be done and nor would it matter, what name or what face they affix upon me, they can’t mask my grace bless the children, bless their humble hearts praise the holistic spirit, the sum sanctifies the parts bless the children, let them multiply blissful fruitful seeds grow to do and die and when I await, at the pearly gate and y’all come before me, so twisted by fate then each of you ask – but one of two things “was it too early or is it too late?” and then I’d reply - and then I’d reply and when I’d reply - and when I’d reply (I’d just turn my head and sigh) If we were sane, then we’d strive to move on How we’d dare to be brave -how we’d fight to stay strong we’d take all we have, and we’d give til we’re pure our spirits would rest, though our feet may be sore we’d spare the child and spoil the rod as we tear down the temples in the name of god first let’s head for the desert, bathe in the mirage of our sins and we’ll have congress with Satan, cause we can learn from him, we can learn from him oh, the things we can learn from hymns.

Tell me why – this folding of the wings From on high – the falling angels sing As the ground – is closing in so fast And their sound – like echoes of the past Reflect the light of morning – that the sun is warming I can feel the world transforming – a new day is dawning (dawning, dawning, dawning) In the fields, the silent songbirds wait Folded wings, like shields of feathered plate Tiny things, with hearts beating so strong All at once, are bursting into song! Rising in the evening – the last of light retreating In the chill of night so freezing – the thrill of flight is fleeting (fleeting, fleeting, fleeting)

Let’s try and work things out, try not to ignore the pain which makes us human beings, which makes us all the same they’ll try to turn us down, they want us to shut up but when they tried to turn us against ourselves, turns out they weren’t strong enough To understand - what they can’t kill Our common sense - our uncommon will We just wanted to fall in love, they just want us to fall in line, we’ll stumble over their ego trips and fall for it every time so let’s try and work things out, learn to endure the pain which made us human beings, which made us all the same To fall in love - to fall in line We fall for this – bullshit - each and every goddamn time To understand – (to understand) - what they can’t kill Our common sense - our uncommon will

Maybe where we go from here – depends upon the atmosphere and its willingness to provide us with each breath we breathe as clarity revealed the stars, to feel so close yet be so far far from the source of all its light – our eyes on the skies tonight The beaten path worn down to stone – it’s up to us to find a way converging path the order of the day – parallel marching to a different beat, passionate façade, deceit left its mark on each of our faces, scars and traces indented by your fingertips, indebted to your willingness desire, once a dying flame, sparked to burning life by the mere mention of your name